and other thoughts on living in a body that has never quite fit the mold
the photo I almost didn’t post
If you follow me on social media, you might already know that June was Scoliosis Awareness Month.
To close it out, I wanted to post a photo of my back. And it wouldn’t have been the first time I did that.
But I realized something: even though I have posted my back before, I was still only ever posting my “good” angles. The ones where my very obvious rib hump wasn’t as obvious.
And I was kind of disappointed in myself. Because on social media, I’ve always tried to be real and honest about my disabled body. But turns out, I was still trying to curate it. Still trying to make it more acceptable.
this wasn’t the bridal experience I dreamed of
I’ve spent most of my life noticing how people react to my disability. It’s a sixth sense that most of us with apparent disabilities have developed over time.
The awkwardness. The stares. The polite-but-weird energy that forms when we enter the room.
And when I got engaged, I felt it again.